I woke up last week with a mysterious rash on my face and two swollen eyes.
I look like death walking. I have narrowed it down to a possible allergic reaction to makeup or skin products. It’s been quite the mystery. As I write this I am actually laughing out loud. What irony. A Makeup Lover and Beauty Youtuber with a face that looks like I got in a street fight. I am telling you this because it has been the best thing to happen to me this week. My husband often tells me I am too hard on myself and need to quit talking negatively about myself. He often suggests that I try to avoid so much negative self talk and see the positives. Do you want to know some truth? He’s right.
I do pride myself on my self awareness and ability to live authentically with no apologies. But I will confess, I make an occasional comment or grunt about the usual woman complaints. “Why do I look so fat today?” or “Wow, you need to try a little harder at the gym, these pants are too tight.” Can we just be real right now ladies, You know you do it too. While at home lathering on skin creams and using a cold face roller I bought off of Amazon, it got me thinking and I could hear the following thoughts in my head. “Megan, quit feeling bad for yourself.” “It is not the end of the world, there are bigger problems in the world.” All I wanted to do was sit down with some music and do my usual routine of “beating my face to the Gods.” You are probably wondering what I just said. This is a common phrase Beauty Guru’s use which means “creating a makeup look that is so amazing that the individual looks stunning.” It sounds so funny reading that aloud but I wanted to sound like a legit beauty pro.
The point is, over the past few days I have had to avoid doing what I love the most, Makeup. My face hurt so bad and was swollen that a full face of makeup wasn’t even an option for me. I was a wreck. So dramatic right? But it made me realize something. I had to appreciate and love myself stripped down, no makeup, in a vulnerable way. Which was really powerful. I truly believe sometimes life throws a pebble to remind us things or give us a sign. I chose to see this minor setback as a good reminder and sign that I need to quit complaining about myself and appreciate myself for who I am. It also was a beautiful reminder of my love to create and use Makeup as self expression. So my lesson for you ladies out there is this. Quit beating yourself up about the things you dislike about yourself and love yourself a little more. We are so hard on ourselves, I mean really hard. We wear so many hats in life as a mother, wife, sister, friend, employee, you name it. There’s so much pressure on women to be skinny, beautiful, successful, yet also be the caretaker and superwoman of the house. It sucks! But I decided that I am going to attempt to practice more self love and be MY biggest fan and I encourage you to do the same. Let’s be a little less critical of ourselves and celebrate the good and bad things that life throws us. That way, even the smallest rash or insecurity can’t ruin us! Alright excuse me while I go ice my eye balls.